Let's seeeee

if 3rd time is a charm. 

One last Interp

I am going to miss Speech and Debate.

I regret only competing in 3 tournaments this year. I know I moved up a rank with my NFL points, but damn, I should have tried harder. I owe Nancy so much. She will forever be my mentor. She is the only one who saw a hint of talent in me, and made me persevere. It makes me so angry when her daughter disrespects her, because she does so much for everyone, I don't know how she got stuck with such a rude child.

I know my team is made up of some of the most disliked people in our class, but when we all come together, I feel this bond between them. It's unexplainable. No one knows how much frikken work and energy you have to put towards this team, and yes it turns people into arrogant, cocky, Republicans it seems like, but it wouldn't be the same without them.

This is the one true extracurricular that has forever shaped my thinking.

I'm going to miss wearing my suit, being so nervous before each speech, hearing Nancy's encouraging words, weeekend long tournaments, and all the people I met.

Where is...

...my helicopter?
the pilot who once steered the propellers in the right direction.
..the toothpick?
that the gentleman swallowed and tore his insides.
...the eraser?
I may have used it all up, and only have the lead left.
...my remote control?
it seems like all the buttons are sticky and won't change the channel.
...my bathrobe?
you have to realize that baths don't solve your problems.
...my flashlight?
my used to be guide in a dark room.
...the megaphone?
so i can shout to the world how angry ___ ___ sometimes.
...Waldo?
It was so easy to find him when I was 8 years old, but I guess I'm losing my eyesight.

the golden goblet

so, i had a chance to grab the golden goblet the other day. yet, i didn't take the opportunity. why not? is a common question asked by all the rest of the knights, and as i think of it, i have no plausible reason. the only ones i can think of sound like excuses. it was in grasp. rightttt there. no boundaries. no sin. no nothing. yet. i slipped. i watched myself float away from this beautiful specimen of enlightenment and knowledge. i want the golden goblet. and i'm gonna get it! 

(:

it seems like others were able to reach the golden goblet. and i don't like to be beaten. when is it my turn? 

Commencement Speech

"to do is to be" - nietzsche
"to be is to do" - kant
"do be do be do" - sinatra
only your song matters in the end

starting from zero got nothing to lose

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so we can fly away
We gotta make a decision
We leave tonight or live and die this way

this is the only song that has been running through my head lately. i want to drive soooooo farr. and just cruiseee. i loveeee driving!!

He kept his word

I received this email from alazypersian@gmail.com on October 9th 2006.

"ill make you fall in love with me again

watch"


Although reading this again, it sounds more of a threat then a passionate promise, it sent chills down my spine to realize that the boy I'm in love with right now was the one who wrote this three years ago.

and 5 months into our new and improved relationship i'm so happy he never gave up on his love for me. I'm so lucky.

I love you Anaoshak. Happy Anniversary.

Patrick Swayze, I want you.

it's funny how

this used to be all that you ever wanted.





oh, how times have changed.