Monday, November 16, 2009

why do it?

i'm very lucky to have found my little group of friends here at sdsu who are absolutely amazing influences on me. we can actually sit around and talk about politics, God, the end of the world, parallel universes, movies, literature, and not once mention a party where we got "shitfaced." i always had a problem with drinking because of my brothers, but now, i oppose it so much that it physically hurts me when i hear about how many people on a daily basis abuse this substance. why can't we enjoy drinking? don't binge drink, or just drink to get drunk. I hate alcohol because the way people use it, that doesn't mean when I'm 21 i won't drink, i actually plan on it, but please children, only a few more years to wait, what's the hurry?

maybe the black sheep just wanted to be like the blue sheep.

ouch!

moral of the story: love hurts? beauty comes with a price? can't touch pretty girls without getting an std? learn karate?

Thursday, October 22, 2009

bamboo




A good friend told me that happiness takes strength, and I thought it was such a great quote. But, in actuality it is really shitty. Happiness should be easy, simple, equal, plentiful, and most of all you shouldn't have to try so hard for it.

I really miss my best friend. I really miss my sister. I really miss my mom. I really miss the feeling of eternal optimism.

4 seconds away seems like it's across the universe.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh


i walk in on my roommate on top of yet another boy. i can't describe the anger i feel right now. this isn't how it's supposed to be.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

a broken slinky

as i was taking the elevator back up to my dorm about 20 minutes ago, i literally said "holy fuck, I don't want to be here"

even though san diego is only 2 hours away, it might as well be cross country. going home and seeing family and friends made me feel so loved. i love being loved. gahhhhhhhh. Tara, you can do this.

good thing I didn't go to Chicago.




The pineapple never tasted sooooo sweet. <3