Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Monday, April 27, 2009

Quote from my Uncle regarding the end of the world

As far as the end of the world goes, that references god-fearing christian apocalyptic scary-tales from pre-literate, pre-scientific sheep herders who hadn't the faintest idea of how the world worked, and probably thought lightening and thunder the voice of Zeus/Jesus/Dionysus/Athena or whatever. Gods come and gods go. I don't believe in the end of the world. Or, in the immortal words of Royce O. Dixon, "the world ends when I die."

I guess I don't fear the end of the world, since it apparently has already ended.
RIP Grandpa

Do I have to hold a sign over my head..

that flashes big bright fucking lights?

Thursday, April 23, 2009


meow meow. meow this. and meow that. if you are having a bad day, just meow!
a meow may get some looks, but then just meow in their face. have you heard? that meow is the word.


Tuesday, April 21, 2009

plllllllllllease Tara

justt go for it, and don't look back.


Night is a very strange thing. I seem to be less happy at night for reasons beyond my understanding.

It's the time when people are sleeping or dreaming of sleeping or dreaming while their sleeping. Or people could be up all night saying they are sleeping but in actuality they are daydreaming when they really should be sleepdreaming. That probably makes no sense.

Night is the time to catch up, to relax, to cleanse yourself, to eat randomly because you are bored. I don't think any other time of day requires so many activities. Night enables sleep, fear, worry, frustration, paranoia, and other absurd feelings you may think of right when you lay your head down on your pillow.

I like light not dark. Yet I love sleeping. Maybe that's why I love naps because then I have sleeping with the sun out and those are my two favorite things.

I don't want to go to bed, but my sister keeps pestering me about my typing. I don't like sharing a room with her.

Goodnight my friends who cannot sleep all over the world.
(one in particular)

Saturday, April 18, 2009


I learned a lot about myself and others these past few days.

I am going to college not for the parties or the people. I could care less if I only make a few close friends. I don't want to be invited to parties, that doesn't intrigue me at all.

People dissapoint me. Even the people I love the most dissapoint me, and it makes it even harder to accept. I guess you can only trust yourself, and promise yourself you won't dissapoint yourself. If that makes any sense. It just makes me so mad to have that mentality.

I have realized since I have been through so much shit through my life already, it can only get better. I will be able to control what I do with my time, money, and love. I have felt alone, I have been deceived, I have been so low, but I won't allow it anymore. There is so much to life and it' s only up to you to live it up.

I have become very cynical towards people and situations. I haven't given up on them yet, but I have just grown more aware. More aware of the ugliness.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Thursday, April 9, 2009

at school

i am here. at school. My head hurts, I wish it would go away.

i learned a lot of things today. made me really sad. i hope they change.

this anticipation is truly killing me. all i can think about is ripping open the letter. hoping to god that "congratulations" is the first word I see.

athena just walked in! now i have someone to talk to (=

yay friends.

p.s. if i'm not at school tomorrow i did not get into chapman.