Monday, January 26, 2009

My Uncle Told Me

To change my major to Mathematics.

Thank you Anaoshak for saving me.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

This is what Finals Week does to me.

Dear Tara,

So, you know this is finals week coming up. Why aren't you nervous? you know that two of your grades are on borderline. Don't you want to prove to yourself you can get an A in Calculus? You cannot disappoint Mr. Viramontes. And then what about Government class. I mean come on, why in the hell don't you understand the U.S. govt? You studied Federalism for a good month, and I bet if I asked you what it is, you still wouldn't know, would you? Haha. All I want from you is a B+ on that test. It's going to be very hard for you to get a B in that class, but you're better than a C. Just know that. As for English, you already screwed up your Synthesis paper, you better not screw up this final. You need to study your literary terms.

I am only scolding you, because I want you to know that it is up to you and your motivation to study and do well, no one elses. You only have 1 more week of this semester. Dammit, you can do it.

P.S. get breakfast every day. It makes you so happy.

Best wishes,

Your Brain

Dear Mister Brain,

My friends are going to think I am crazy for posting this, but I will talk to you anyway. I will get an A in Calculus. End of story. I will try my hardest to get a B in governement. Ms. You believes in me. Every T.A. period I will study. When it comes to English, I have already kicked myself hard enough about my crappy Synthesis paper, so we are not going to think about that. And I'm sorry I do not find words like antithesis or paradox very interesting.

Yes, it is up to me and only me to pass these tests. I just wish sometimes I was one of those students who did not have to study and still pass. Man, I will never be one of those kids.

P.S. I have no idea what federalism is. But I do love Poptarts.

Your Slightly Confused,


Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Senior Year

Homecoming Game.
Homecoming Court.
Mr. Stevens.
Pretty flowers.
Pretty people.
Winter Formal.
In n Out
Flowing Dresses.
Late Night.
Windy Roads.
A Street.
Senior Year.

I have this weird feeling that everything is gonna be okay. I have my high school sweetheart back in my arms. I love my friends more than anything. I'm going to hawaii. I will get into college. Everything just finally feels right.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

never again

I was defeated today. Mentally, emotionally, and physically.

Never again will I lose myself to self pity.

Sunday, January 11, 2009


Lately, I have felt inadequate.
I can't ski. I can't snowboard. I can't cook. I suck at math. I suck at shooting games. I suck at school. I can't sing. I definitely can't dance. I can't play an instrument. I can't even spell the word can't easily because my keyboard is messed up so every time I write an apostrophe it comes out as ''''''''''''''' AND I have to delete those extra 15. BUT.

TODAY, I felt accomplished! I felt adequate. I felt snow down my back. And I felt fear. I tasted fear. I saw fear in the eyes of the hiker who was flailing down the mountain. Who had absolutely no control over himself, but mother nature took its course and luckily padded him with a nice white blanket to stop his fall. I love blankets.

We all looked so good today with our backpacks and boots our beanies and windbreakers, and can't forget our one pair of $15 dollar socks. But, of course, I wore bright colored Barela toe socks. Worked perfectly and kept me happy every time I looked down.

Hiking in the snow keeps me entertained, keeps me cold AND hot. Adds fear and extra excitement. Allows Mr. Cullinane to write Rachel Smells in the snow, and give a perfect camera opportunity to Mr. Ontiveros. It allows ICE CHUNK fights, snow DEMONS, and best of all BURLEYLANCHES.

I also learned, that if you fall in snow, you don't feel as stupid as when you fall in dirt. Either that or it just doesn't hurt as much.

Today, I was a hiker. I have been iniated into this secret society where we all wear silly hats! literally. because I am thinking about Mr. Stevens hat right now. hehehehe


p.s Athena comes back to school tomorrow, just more of a reason to wake up in the

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Story of My life

Someone asked me my life story, but I refused to tell them because I hope to one day publish it and make millions.

Epic Campaign

We can be a secret society. And no one else can join, unless they wear funny hats!

I had an absolutely fantastic day. No, let's say, the last 3 days. 3 Magnormously fun days. Definition of magnormous is magnificient and enormous combined, I was referring to Alex's butt when I came up with this word. Anyway.

I got to spend new years with my Persian. Best New Years to date.

Spent all day at the Ontivero's home and even though exhausted from the night before, they gave me energy that I didnt think I had. They are truly an amazing family. That is such an understatement that I am ashamed there is no stronger word to express my love for this family.

Thank you Ontivero's family for making me miss you well before I graduate.

Then today I went sledding! But, the funny thing is it was driving for a good 5 hours, eating for 2 hours, walking for an hour, and then sledding for maybe 45 minutes? goshh. it was SOO darn fun. I had to share a seat belt with BRANDDONN VARGOOO. (kimly I am saying his name like he says my name but only you will understand this reference)
This trip helped me realize... I kinda do like rap music if it has a story to tell. I realized that I unintentially hurt someone I care so much about now, and that I was stupid, and I'm sorry. I realized that sometimes a friend just needs to figure out how to treat a best friend, and no matter how you treat me now I will still be there for you when you need me. I realized that singing 'Jesse's gonna put you in a log cabin" all day, never gets old. I realized that sledding down a hill with someone is 1000x more fun then doing it alone. I realized eating in n out outside in the cold but with friends never tasted sooo good. I realized that sometimes you have to hold on for dear life when you go down a slippery slope, close your eyes, and laugh when you fall off then climb back up the hill and try again.
p.s. i realized after listening to Just Dance 14 times, i am still not sick of the song.

THEN!!! Alex's hangout bonfire. Man, rachels horrific drum playing, kimlys amazing singing, alex's fish feet, and priyas rhythm deficiency truly made my evening fantastic. Fantastic.

W E T H E B E S T DJ KHALED! we the best!