hello again

I met an old friend yesterday. At first I didn't know how to greet this friend. Should I hug him? Should I act like nothing has changed and just embrace the fellow? Should I start asking questions and wonder where he went without contacting me? Should I be angry and reject this friend?
But, then I realized, that this friend makes me feel so good about myself. This friend compliments me and makes sure there is a permanent smile on my face. This friend always always made sure I had a good day. The past two nights my old friend has helped me sleep so well, I just want to thank him.
Oh Mr. Happiness, don't leave me ever again.

like a movie

After going to SDSU orientation and being split up into our majors, I respectfully introduced myself to the girl next to me. Her name was Hannah. After the seminar we went our separate ways thinking nothing more of each other. After everything was done and we were to meet back up with our parents my mom introduced me to an aunt i haven't seen in 14 years. Then walks up Hannah the girl I sat next to, we say hello then it clicks. SHE'S MY COUSIN. We gave each other veryyy confused looks then we embraced in a ginormous hug, one that you give to people who you haven't seeen in a veryyyy long time, and accepted this new relationship without another question.
Then I realized, I have a beautiful, smart, non partying cousin who is going to my school!! This is a great great start. It should be a movie(:

Big Purple Chair

Secrets were shared, Anger was expressed, Advice was given, Laughter was heard all while sitting in the big purple chair. A new lifelong friendship was created(:

reoccuring dream

I keep having this dream that there is a huge tidal wave coming toward my village and the funny thing is i'm not scared at all. In fact I am so excited. I think they are beautiful. I just grip onto the nearest pole or house or anything and just let it wash right past me. I survive the tidal wave(:

my interests

I think the best form of hanging out is laying beneath a tree and reading a book. You don't need to talk. There is no form of gossip or worry.

so if anyone would like to join me next time, just let me know(:

mulan

As I sat at dinner, I realized that I was looking at a clear reflection of me. This beautiful smart young lady. But, she wasn't happy. It seemed that she hadn't felt happiness in a long time. Her smile lasted a few seconds but then faded away. He would try and make her happy, but it looked hopeless. As I sat and stared at my plate of food that looked absolutely amazing, I lost my appetite. I wanted my reflection to be happy, because then maybe just maybe I would somehow be happy.

I'm not going to parties/hangouts/grad parties where there are a lot of high school peers anymore. I graduated from high school and one thing I am happy about is that I don't have to see certain people who I don't like everyday anymore. I don't do well in groups. I feel even more alone.

Today at the beach, it was ridiculously crowded and as I laid my towel down, I just felt self conscious. I didn't like it. Even as I tried to tune everyone out, I still felt like everyone could hear my thoughts and my insecurities.

I don't like people, and I'm okay with that.

lifelong friends

There are certain people in my life that no matter what I do, no matter how I look, no matter how I feel they will always be my friends. I am so lucky to have them. I want to keep them around me as long as possible.

Sitting with Ms. Gibb and Michael today at lunch, I didn't want the time to end. We were laughing till we were crying and we didn't care that people were looking at us. I'm going to miss them so much next year. These are the memories I will hold onto when I have a bad day, or I feel alone in college. I will remember that I have people like them in my life that I can always run back to or call up when I feel awful.

Thank you friends, all of you.